What is friendship???
I knows that vividly...
I doesn't need the others told me what is the meaning of it...
Although I said I had comforted myself in this sort of life..
But that doesn't meant that friends mean nothing to me...
To me,friends are important as my family mean to me..
If my friends need help I'll try my best to help them...
And I help them that doesn't mean I want get back anything...
I'm scared of my friends angry..
I'll afraid and worry why they are angry...
I'll worry why they are being sad and bla bla bla...
So,friends are important to me..
Perhaps when primary school,I was around by my friends..
That's made friends had became an important role to me...
I was happy when primary school...
I'm glad that I know them..
Even we are far apart,they still will remember our times...
But my high school friends...
Maybe I don't know them well...
Or maybe my personality and perspective doesn't same with them..
So,I can't felt any friendship from them...
When my mum told me,I just realised actually when the first day I be with them..I was unhappy
Sometimes I'll thinking that be with them I'm suffering...
The stress keep came over to me...
Until this year,they are changed
Not changed into better but worst..
They started ignore my existence...
When I asking something,they are just like don't want to bother...
Then,I'm cried again...
That was my third times I cried because of friends....
But after my mum told me something,I stopped from crying...
I need to be tough..I need to be strong...
My tears just worth for the people that I'm care..(Of course,Mike is a very important person to me too..XD)
So,before you started care about the person..
You need to think that did they really worth for me to care about??
Did they really worth for me to cry??
Now,sometimes I'll dislike my friends talk about the things that over line
But I felt happy,at least..
Because they are really treat me as their friend..
And they never did something will hurt me badly..(The dance just a misunderstanding..LOL)
Did they ignore me???No..
Although sometimes they will criticize my idols,and that really hurt me...
But they still treat me as friend...
I remembered that time I didn't going to school..
And that time Influenza A H1N1 really very serious at that time..
Then,Hui Ling suddenly called me at the night..
She asked me that did I'm okay??She said because of I never absence so she was worried about me...
I was shocked but touching too at that moment..
Unbelievable..I can't believe that still had people concern and care about me..
Maybe some of them cannot really understand my feeling well..
But they really treat me as friend...
I wanted to say thanks you to them..
Thanks you guys,although you guys sometimes are really really over the line and hurt me..
But I know you guys still treat me as friend...
Because you guys never ignore my existence...thanks

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