Yesterday went to Ah Pui birthday Party...
I just can said maybe she's using her heart and tried to make the party held successfully..
But I cannot felt the excitement among the people..included myself..
Actually I can laughing like hell as I saw her speaking and other else..
But after I read the newspaper and the music moving around in my ears..
My tears dropped..
I was overwhelmed by the sadness again...
I realise why I always overwhelmed by sadness...
Perhaps you guys will thinking that I'm stupid,I'm brainless,I'm useless,I'm abnormal,That's ridiculous and so on..
But when you guys think like that,did you really try to understand my feeling??
Perhaps you guys thinking that my feeling ain't nothing to you all..
Of course you will keep stand on what's your perspective...
But that doesn't matter...
Because you guys perspective ain't nothing to me anymore...
I'm already comfort myself in this sort of life...
The people truly understood me are nobody...
Maybe there had somebody knows me well..
But there's not much as the other people had...
Just now I read one of my friends blog..
Actually her situation same as mine...
Nobody try to understand us...
So that's why I'll feel loneliness..
But loneliness ain't nothing to her..
But loneliness seriously ruined my life...
I hate loneliness but I getting comfort myself in lonely..
Just like him,already comfort himself in this sort of life...
He'll cry sometimes,he'll walking around the neighbourhood just wanted to find someone to talk
But he just ended up coming back to home...
When the time goes longer,he already comfort himself...
So,actually the others perspective ain't nothing to him..
Ain't nothing...

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