Yesterday after I watch the Oprah Interview 1993 with Michael..
And when I saw that she questioning Michael like judge and don't believe what Michael had answered...
I really feel mad and I cried..
But don't know why I feel so scared and worried..
Suddenly feel like that's really helpless..
Well,maybe this wasn't the first time..
But yesterday I do really most scared and really fear..
I some kind like couldn't sleep..
The first time I feel like this..
Although when during conference,I did scared and no doubt this is more scared than this time..
But yesterday I really scared....
And I do really worried about..
Until today,I'm still worried and scared...
I know I shouldn't worried about...
But in my bottom my heart truly really believe Mike..
No matter how I comforted myself..
I still worried..I scared..
I feel so helpless...
This is really my first time so worried and scared..
Until now,I'm just comfort more...
And I feel that I'm soo bad!!!!
Why I worried!!!!Why I'm not convinced!!!???
Why I can't be tough???
Sometimes I really will think that I'm not treasure him enough..
I feel so guilty,sins....
But just now I just realised..
No matter how I worried,scared..
He already be a part of my life...
No doubt,because I love him so I worried and scared...
Maybe someday I will became worry and scare again..
But I know that the agony that I felt to him...
Will always be the most pain for me..
And I'd rather to pain and suffer like this..
Because I just don't want to forget how I fall for him,how much I do love him...
Perhaps you guys will thought that I'm silly..
Yes,I am..
But this really meant a lot to me....
No matter the future will I worry and scare or not..
But I can convinced that I really love him..
Day by Day~

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